{"id":1181,"date":"2010-10-20T23:43:14","date_gmt":"2010-10-21T03:43:14","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/?p=1181"},"modified":"2010-10-20T23:43:14","modified_gmt":"2010-10-21T03:43:14","slug":"as_i_have_been_saying_to_myself_since_1990","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/2010\/10\/20\/as_i_have_been_saying_to_myself_since_1990.html","title":{"rendered":"As I have Been Saying To Myself Since 1990"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>\t\t\t\tAt least it&#8217;s not the Parc Lincoln.<\/p>\n<p>I just did a photo shoot of my fabulous apartment. I went for the <br \/>\nmountains of detritus in the closets, the fingerprint mounds on the <br \/>\ndoors, and the footprint stains on the floors. I did not reach the <br \/>\nParc Lincoln for a couple of months after this day in 1990, but for years <br \/>\nafter escaping that shit hole I could never set up anywhere without <br \/>\nthinking &#8220;At least it&#8217;s not the Parc Lincoln.&#8221; I remember thinking those <br \/>\nwords when I checked in to a Los Angeles Marriott for a patently bogus <br \/>\ncorporate boondoggle. And I thought those words in late 2005, when <br \/>\ncircumstances forced me to check in to a Motel 6 in Norfolk, Virginia, <br \/>\nand contemplate not only the bonus that this was not the Parc Lincoln <br \/>\nbut the fantasy I maintain that some doors are magic doors, and opening <br \/>\nthese magic doors sometimes requires a magic key, but passage through <br \/>\nthese doors transports one not just from the physical hardships of their <br \/>\nlives but the spiritual anomalies too. I fantasized about that as I <br \/>\npressed the key into the slot at the Motel 6, and I was sour to see that <br \/>\nthe room behind the door was just another motel room, all-white walls, <br \/>\nitchy sheets, cushioned chairs no human could stand to sit in&#8230; But at <br \/>\nleast it wasn&#8217;t the Parc Lincoln.<\/p>\n<p>It took years for me to get over the sensation of the Parc Lincoln roaches <br \/>\ncrawling into my mouth as I tried to sleep, and of the sounds of clucking <br \/>\npigeons on the needfully-opened window sill, and of the hot, hot summer <br \/>\nnights.<\/p>\n<p>This place is more than fine. I have been here 12 years, and this place <br \/>\nis all kinds of good things. No bed bugs, no roaches, no sounds of the <br \/>\ntransient neighbors&#8217; beds creaking through the night. I do not mean to <br \/>\ncompare this abode to the Parc Lincoln, except to remind myself that it <br \/>\nis not the Parc Lincoln, and on that basis this place is paradise.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>At least it&#8217;s not the Parc Lincoln. I just did a photo shoot of my fabulous apartment. I went for the mountains of detritus in the closets, the fingerprint mounds on the doors, and the footprint stains on the floors. I did not reach the Parc Lincoln for a couple of months after this day [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_et_pb_use_builder":"","_et_pb_old_content":"","_et_gb_content_width":"","_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[29],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1181","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-text","et-doesnt-have-format-content","et_post_format-et-post-format-standard"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/paumAn-j3","jetpack-related-posts":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1181","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1181"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1181\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1181"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1181"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1181"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}