\t\t\t\t“You have a nice life” was the seemingly impromptu but evidently
\nlong-planned reprise to tonight’s last full conversation.<\/p>\n
i guess i do embody my philosophical goal of lack of responsibility, which
\nis different from irresponsibility. i think responsibility is a vacuum
\ncleaner of independence and individuality, but others regard it as a
\nprestige factor, or a badge.<\/p>\n
but does that make my life “nice”?<\/p>\n
now that i think of it, maybe it does. hell yeah. nice life, nice life.<\/p>\n
…..<\/p>\n
i went to the small hall at Carnegie Hall tonight, to see a concert in
\nhonor of a friend who died 10 years ago. a similar concert was held soon
\nafter he died, but i missed it completely. that earlier concert seemed to
\nhave attracted every luminary in the musical world of the day. this
\nconcert drew me and about 100 others. kind of a strange event, but
\nsincere.<\/p>\n
i re-encountered my inability breathe right in these concert halls. the
\nlgiths are bright and hot, and if i am too close to the stage i feel
\nclaustrophobic. i had to dip into breathing exercies at first, but after
\nthe concert started and the air conditioning was turned on i felt fine. at
\nfirst the old hall felt stuffy and a little ornery in its air. but i guess
\nthey don’t turn on the a\/c until the music starts. not so opulent on that
\nbasis, and not a real sparkling little hall to begin with, but i made it
\nall the way through the event without my eyes welling up too much — and
\nthat’s not on account of any sadness, but on account of the air in there.<\/p>\n
the chandeliers are nice in there.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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