it was all unnecessary, i think. or so i am starting to think. a brain MRI
\n2 days ago left me rattled and rolled mostly on account of my lack of
\ninformed preparation for the event. i read as far as how i should prepare
\nfor it but beyond that i just assumed it was 45-minutes of lying in one
\nspot and not moving. i didn’t know about the noise. holy shit, i wish i
\nhad advance knowledge about that, because by the time i got used to it it
\nfelt like cacophonous rock&roll opera raging inside my head. throw in a
\nfunky beat and i think that’s exactly what you’ve got. but it wasn’t so
\nmuch fun as it should have been. i suspect that this MRI and most tests of
\nits kind are needless. and an MRI is never fun, really, but i have the
\nright frame of mind about these things to try and make it so.<\/p>\n
i’m starting to wish i hadn’t scanned some of the films that the surly
\nradiologist gave me. films of the brain scans. films of photos with a
\nswirl of text matter around each image, i saw the little twisty entrails
\nand the pockets of liquid and the tree-like mass of nerves that is my
\nspine. in one shot i swear it’s my mouth emerging from the middle of my
\nbrain. teeth. now i see a teething orifice in my brain and i think oh, so
\nthat’s what’s eating my life.<\/p>\n
i hope i never have to do that again. the brain MRI. unless i’m carrying a
\nfetus in my skull i can’t imagine what might come next to merit another
\none of these.<\/p>\n
i guess i’m putting that insurance to work once and for all. up until now
\nits mostly been needless dentist visits and random blood tests that prove,
\nas always, nothing.<\/p>\n
but i wish i hadn’t looked at my brain, my fucking brain, my
\nmotherfuckingbrain.<\/p>\n
it felt like a day a few weeks ago when i couldn’t figure out why the
\nlaptop computer was not recording properly. i didn’t realize that the
\nmicrophone was turned on, and that the line-in plug was useless. i thought
\nsound was going in through the line-in but it was not, and
\nas i started whining and complaining and pleading with the motherfucking
\ncomputer to please just fucking work. when i realized that the thing had
\nbeen recording all the while i played back the recording and heard nothing
\nbut my whines and bleats. i sounded a fucking pig being beaten with a
\npiece of hickory, which might just be a suitable metaphor for my goddam
\nlife.<\/p>\n
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