At present I am watching video of myself sleeping. Listening, actually, more than watching. I woke up screaming from a dream last night, and I am curious to hear what it sounded like.<\/p>\n
In the dream someone pulled a knife on me. I grabbed the weapon from his hand and threw it away. He then pulled a gun and I woke up screaming, feeling cowardly about it for some reason, as if I should have stayed asleep and let the guy shoot me.<\/p>\n
The dream encounter occurred in the kitchen of the house I grew up in down in Tampa. The house was alive with activity, though I did not know anybody there.<\/p>\n
A man arrived with a small dog, asking a woman who appeared to be head of the household if she had a safe place to put the animal. She took the dog from the man and stuffed it into a kitchen cabinet, closing the cabinet door. Everybody seemed to think this normal, to store live animals in kitchen cabinets.<\/p>\n
That’s when the stern-looking snarling dude revealed he had a knife, threatened to stab me with it, and then he pulled a gun. The knife was not a butcher knife or even a steak knife. It was something between a butter knife and a serrated utensil, probably not enough to kill me but sharp enough to puncture.<\/p>\n
As I wait through this video to hear the sound of myself screaming I suspect it will be underwhelming. In terms of audio the camera is not a high-fidelity instrument, though its night vision is pretty sharp. I can see myself breathing. But audio is pretty twangy.<\/p>\n
Still, this is the kind of thing I got the camera for, to document nocturnal eruptions and explore that part of my life I’ve mostly only heard about from lovers and roommates. I have made audio, some of it memorable; and I attempted video once but the camera was too poor quality for low light.<\/p>\n
Instead of listening to the full 4am hour in which I think the scream occurred it should be as simple as dumping the video into an editing software and looking for a spike in the audio waveform. But for some reason Cyber Director did not parse out the audio like it usually does. I thought I’d muted the mic by mistake. But there is sound when playing back in digiKam, so go figure.<\/p>\n
OK, it seems the audio of myself screaming did not record, or if it did I missed it, and it’s not enough of a priority to play all that stuff back again. I think the scream was muffled on account of my face being buried in a pillow. Or maybe it just wasn’t as loud as it felt.<\/p>\n
I do want to know more about this part of my life, though, the one-third (probably more) of it spent in such a vulnerable, almost infantile state. I frequently wake up in the middle of the night, wandering off out of camera view.<\/p>\n
If there is anything eerie or maybe just weird it’s how I sometimes gesticulate\u00a0 in a way that makes it look like I am wide awake when I am not. I also think it’s weird how often my eyes open and the night view makes them look shiny.<\/p>\n
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