I don’t like writing like this on company time but there is nothing happening here today, and no one pays attention to me anyway. I speak when spoken to, which is not often. I’m not happy with my life anymore. I’m not certain when I ever was. I know I always felt good after being on TV or in the news. It was a safe feeling, knowing that thousands of people out there knew I was here and OK. I never deliberately sought that kind of attention but it was OK when it happened. It is cooler today than expected, and the Elevated Acre has been reopened so I can possibly watch helicopters take off for a bit this afternoon. I feel somewhat numb inside. I was reflecting yesterday on how this job saved me. I was in freefall, tailspin, whatever death spiral metaphor you want to use. This job saved me from that but now it is bankrupting me, and I feel trapped. I still like the job and the place but I should be farther on in life already. I keep thinking I should write more poetry, as interesting and melodiously dissonant words trickle through my head throughout the days. I’ve started a new recording project, which actually is not so new, but I’ve invoked a new recording device and it seems like it will be a good fit for once. I’ve had poor luck making decent-quality recordings from my cell phone. Everything always sounds spitty and chunky. The payphones, for all their idiosyncracies and instabilities, were so much better in terms of audio quality when they worked as intended. More poetry? Hey, why not. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
TRAPPED WITHIN MY STANDING, ELEMENTS OF FINESSE SURROUNDED BY UNCRONTROLLABLE LAUGHTER. TENSIONS FLIP WITH THE FLOP THAT IS ME, A JOYLESS NUCLEAR BISCUIT READY FOR DETONATION. I’M READY FOR MY FANCY SWIM, TO CONFESS THAT WATER PLANS ITS SUNDAYS WITHOUT ME. HIDE ME UNDER YOUR CLOCKTOWER, MESH ME INTO THE GARDENS THERE. JUNGLES JUMP AT FRIDAY’S VALOR, FOREST FLOP AT SUPPER’S DISINTEGRATION. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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