{"id":61,"date":"2008-09-18T16:24:45","date_gmt":"2008-09-18T20:24:45","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/?p=61"},"modified":"2008-09-18T16:24:45","modified_gmt":"2008-09-18T20:24:45","slug":"buk","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/2008\/09\/18\/buk.html","title":{"rendered":"Buk"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>\t\t\t\tI&#8217;m not going to die<br \/>\neasy;<br \/>\nI&#8217;ve sat on your suicide beds<br \/>\nin some of the worst<br \/>\nholes in America,<br \/>\npenniless and mad I&#8217;ve been,<br \/>\nI mean, insane, you know;<br \/>\nbig tears, each one the size of your bastard hearts,<br \/>\nflowing down,<br \/>\nroaches crawling into my shoes,<br \/>\none dirty 40-watt lightbulb overhead<br \/>\nand a room that smelled like piss;<br \/>\nwhile your rich<br \/>\nyour falsely famous<br \/>\nlaughed in safe stale places<br \/>\nfar away,<br \/>\nyou gave me a suicide bed and two choices,<br \/>\nno three:<br \/>\nstarve, go mad, or kill yourself.<br \/>\nfor now enjoy your trips to Paris where<br \/>\nyou consort with great painters and dupes,<br \/>\nbut I am getting ready for your eyes and your brain and<br \/>\nyour dirty dishwater souls;<br \/>\nyou men who have created a pigpen for millions<br \/>\nto choke soundlessly in &#8212;<br \/>\nfrom India to Los Angeles<br \/>\nfrom Paris to the tits of the Nile &#8212;<br \/>\nyou&#8217;re fucked up<br \/>\nyou rich you warty you insecure you pricky<br \/>\ndamned imbecile pasty white<br \/>\nidiots with your starched shirts and your starched wives and, and yes,<br \/>\nyour starched lives,<br \/>\nget away get away<br \/>\nget away<br \/>\ngo to Paris<br \/>\nwhile you can<br \/>\nwhile I let you.<br \/>\nthe jolly damned man with the hoe (see Markham)<br \/>\ndidn&#8217;t answer the call<br \/>\nbut your children will be raped and your pigs will be eaten<br \/>\nand the skies will burn black with crows and your cries,<br \/>\nas you answer for centuries of<br \/>\nunbearable indignity and bullshit.<br \/>\nyou will be dealt with<br \/>\nwe know you now<br \/>\nwe&#8217;ve known you forever;<br \/>\nthe might of the timorous<br \/>\nflies forth like a tremendous and beautiful swan,<br \/>\nno shit, friend,<br \/>\nlook up look up look up look up<br \/>\nthe jolly damned man with the hoe<br \/>\nis now flying over Milwaukee<br \/>\ngrinning<br \/>\nmore lovely than the sun<br \/>\nmore graceful than all the ugly wounds<br \/>\nmore real than you<br \/>\nor I or anything.<br \/>\n<cite>Charles Bukowski: starve, go mad, or kill yourself, p. 308 of The Pleasures of the Damned<\/cite><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\t\t\t\tbig tears, each one the size of your bastard hearts,<br \/>\nflowing down<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_et_pb_use_builder":"","_et_pb_old_content":"","_et_gb_content_width":"","_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[19],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-61","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-passages","et-doesnt-have-format-content","et_post_format-et-post-format-standard"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/saumAn-buk","jetpack-related-posts":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/61","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=61"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/61\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=61"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=61"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=61"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}