I don\u2019t want to talk about it. But it is almost enough to make me want to cry. I feel bad, am bad. Remembering a woman at Queens Plaza a couple of weeks ago who repeatedly shouted \u201cI DON\u2019T FEEL GOOD, AND IT\u2019S PISSING ME OFF!\u201d I heard her shouting this plaintive wail at least a dozen times. She was comical to me then. Now I want to be like her. This day feels eternal. How early did I get up, anyway? I don\u2019t even know. I feel like drinking but it is too early.<\/p>\n
As a favor I digitized a small number of cassette tapes a friend had from childhood. I only listened to a few moments, to be sure it was recording, but those few moments contained his voice at 5 or 6 years old singing the Diarrhea Song. What\u2019s heard cannot be unheard. Actually it was just funny. I used to sing that song at summer camp. Only line I can remember is \u201cSome people think it\u2019s funny but it\u2019s really wet and runny\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n
Speaking of digitizing I noticed that archive.org is finally carrying scans of The Etude<\/cite>, that magazine which consumed so much of my intellectual and industrial resources over the years. They have almost every issue from 1940 to 1957. Upon noticing this I downloaded them all and hauled two box loads of my printed magazines out to the curb. I only kept December, 1946, because that issue is for some reason not among the otherwise complete set from 1940-57. There are also a number of the very old issues from the 1880s, including issue #1, which I don\u2019t think I\u2019d ever seen in its entirety before. I should really just continue with that relatively small purge and discard all or at least most of my copies. I\u2019ve scanned almost everything I need and if the uploads to archive.org are any indication there will probably be a complete set. There have been complete sets but they were derived from the notoriously awful microfilm copies used by libraries. These scans are 300dpi and seem excellent, though I would have scanned them at 600.<\/p>\n I talked to John, my only friend in the real world of the payphone business. He is 59. I guess that age is about what I might have guessed, though I might have said a little younger. He was in good spirits, which was nice to hear. Last time he called it felt like he was yelling at me. I think Ugo mentioned once that the side of John he saw was different what I seemed to get. With me it\u2019s like John\u2019s on his best behavior. Ugo came away from some encounters with John feeling worried about him. He may have exaggerated but I think I got some sense of that from John in our previous conversation a few months ago. A coarse, frustrated, even angry person. Today was different, and he knew it enough to mention it himself. He credits his current sunny disposition to having found a new girlfriend. Good for him, I guess. I will ask more about that when we meet this week. He is giving me a payphone, right at the point where I am closer than I\u2019ve ever been to pulling the plug on that website and moving on.<\/p>\n I kind of feel like throwing up.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I don\u2019t want to talk about it. But it is almost enough to make me want to cry. I feel bad, am bad. Remembering a woman at Queens Plaza a couple of weeks ago who repeatedly shouted \u201cI DON\u2019T FEEL GOOD, AND IT\u2019S PISSING ME OFF!\u201d I heard her shouting this plaintive wail at least […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_et_pb_use_builder":"","_et_pb_old_content":"","_et_gb_content_width":"","_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[29],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-7572","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-text","et-doesnt-have-format-content","et_post_format-et-post-format-standard"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/paumAn-1Y8","jetpack-related-posts":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7572","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=7572"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7572\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":24165,"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7572\/revisions\/24165"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=7572"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=7572"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/wsbj.com\/sorabji\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=7572"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}