Not drinking tonight and I already know it’s going to drive me crazy. it’s the damn pill the doc gave me. He wouldn’t give me librium for some reason (I think because it’s not covered by my insurance) so he gave me this other thing that makes me crave alcohol. Librium was the opposite. It made me not want to drink at all, and it just worked better than this shit. but the doctor is kind of an asshole to me because I drink so much. I’ve cut way back though. but skipping a night never used to be such a big deal.
revisiting the ghetto coffee shop at 10:30. i really appreciate that they were open today. the sandwich/burger maker dude seems very nice. i feel like i know him already. i have a stockpile of chicken and steaks at home but felt restless and wanted to be around people. whole different crew at night. i’d camp out here longer but there’s no bathroom.
the coverage of this storm has been making it sound like people are going to have to be inside for 2 weeks, not 24 hours. i watched Channel 2 for most of the day. everybody they interviewed on the street seemed happy. i discovered too that FiOS actually does have the channels i thought i wouldn’t get: NYC traffic cams and public access. the channel arrangement is strange. love watching those traffic cams. some of them today were completely white with snow.
tried writing something but got nowhere. tried building a web site with one of those Elegant Themes but got nowhere. those themes which are intended for use as photo galleries have an obnoxious and even baffling shortcoming. they all assume your photos will be horizontally oriented. this creates idiotic looking thumbnails for vertically oriented portraits. the head gets cut off but the torso sure looks prominent. there is no way to cut the thumbnail to your liking. very primitive.
hmm, just saw a train pass by on the N/Q line. outside subways were supposed to be suspended but i guess they move them around anyway during such times.
just feeling down and in the dumps all week. this weather, not even just today but all week, has been no help in raising my spirits. I was OK on Wednesday, I guess, for a while at least. Feels like my brain is burning. Cleared out a closet of some crap that I had tried to sell on eBay but gave up on months ago. Didn’t realize I still had it in the closet. Think I sold a DVD set a few weeks ago but nothing else for a long time. not going to waste my energies on that shit any more but will leave a few things up for now. would like to get ruthless with clearing space. could stand to get rid of at least a shelf of books that i will never read or even open. it’s become hard to read books as i age and my near vision gets worse.
lots of people out walking around. cabin fever, i bet. that’s what i got. might put this tablet away at home and walk around some in the wonderland.
