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Sometimes I hear signals. See them, at least. I hear nothing now but whirring from the freezer behind me. I grew up in a freezer. It was on the top rack, with ice cube trays and three other children, where I learned to...

typing this at the piano, with no spell check, because i am such a manly man in that respect. 10:39pm as i start. an ongoing epic correspondence with the author of a sheet music reading program has me ready to throw in the...

Saturday, all at once, I downed 60mg of Nifedipine and 2½mg of Lorazepam. This was my first intake of either drug in probably three months. I had felt strung out, excitable, directionless. I felt like walking the day away, as I...

Thought I might have something to say this day, this gift of a day, after waking at 5am. But no. Instead I got to deal with the monotonous, tiresome chore of cleaning up log files and freeing space on this web server. I should...

It’s amazing what a difference even a smattering of contact with a new-to-me human being has on my disposition. A couple of YT comments had me bounding from this place, facing the world like a conqueror. Just as abruptly...

So many things go missing. Memory is a bastard peris (that was supposed to be ‘period’) a bastard. Rummaging through hundreds even thousands of old photos photos last night I turned up a squall of images I completely...

I do not remember them. So many of my minutes blacked out. I don’t even want to save them and I am one who wants to save everything.

Woke up and wrote over 1800 words for a story inspired by a dream I had but also based on real-life experiences. A woman I used to know was in love with intelligence. She claimed the most physically repulsive person alive could...

I think it was my 12-letter words and big ambitions. She’s a simple sort, poor (like me), with no desires to do anything but sit at her desk 11-12 hours a day. Her voice is oddly shrill for such a timid creature. We did...

Session Start: Wed Sep 03 12:06:01 2008 Session Ident: #philosophy 15[12:06] * Now talking in #philosophy 04[12:06] * Topic is ‘Neff Log Cabin Republican: Neff no, you are. [21:01] maybe there’s alcohol involved in...

What can you do with a rhombus? Well for starters you can turn it into a square. You can make it rectangle. You can turn to into a circle, a star, a fraction, a quadratic equation. You can do anything with a rhombus.

I let sorabji.mobi, one of my favorite domains, expire a few months ago. .mobi is a failed top level domain originally intended for use by websites that were designed for mobile devices. That was before seemingly everything was...

She mentioned it twice, both times driving the car whilst circambcombanducantortadillaybewildered, saying it was always/only a woman’s right, not any man’s, a sentiment with which I never disagreed, on instinct,...

Awaking to the usual expectation of expectoration, that I must produce, must create, must continue to fill oceans with mountains, mountains of text, intellectual cardboard, impossibly forgotten photographs, mental effluvia of...

Dear Bob, Hello. How are you doing? I was thinking of you last night when I ordered a Cape Codder at Kennedy’s Restaurant & Bar on West 57th Street. They made it exceptionally strong, I think, which may have...

I knew her through the Minitel, available in New York as “Aline”.

Another Gothamist story appears to be brewing. A journalist there tweeted to someone who posted a video over the weekend, to get a quote from him about the kiosks. He seems to be a skeptic of the kiosks, from what little else he has posted, questioning the pat response that it is an “old-fashioned phone […]

Might have just taken too huge of a chance on things, but I did it intentionally. A well-dressed dude with a professional-grade video camera and tripod was shooting video on Third Avenue, I think at 52nd Street. There was a kiosk right in front of him. I stepped into the frame and dialed the number, […]

I have had this thought before, but never chronicled it. I have to ask if it is possible that people get paid to go around neighborhoods asking for directions to certain places. I was just approached by a woman walking the other direction with what I assume were her two kids, a young daughter and […]

I just gave someone pinpoint and accurate directions to 33rd Avenue in Astoria, the little sidestreet even native Astorians do not think exists. I have, in the past, given inaccurate directions to that street, even though I pass it very frequently. But it is, even on repeated exposure, not a street to take note of. […]

More day. Up early. Getting up early just gives me more time to waste. I think, no I know, that this sentiment turned a certain correspondent against me. I guess I can’t blame her, though the conversation was getting rather long in the tooth anyway. I have not missed it. Interesting crowd last night. One […]

Who has time for anything? How does anyone have time to do anything? Certain words and concepts give me more and more trouble as I keep them in consideration. So much of our civilization relies on phenomena and behaviors that cannot be proven to have occurred. You say you see something. Prove it. Disprove it. […]

At Rockefeller Center in what might be the most perfect spot in terms of air conditioning. I am directly under one of the vents, and Rockefeller Center has air conditioning that is, if anything, a little over the top even on very hot days. I had a conversation about that with one of the post […]

At the coffee shop, a ponderous and hot afternoon spent wandering the kiosks for what feels like something of an end run. I’ll keep doing it but not as determinedly, and more in keeping with how I used to do it, which was on my way to whatever else I am doing. I think I’m […]

The ripple effects are subtle, yet morbid once you key into them. At 40th Avenue and 29th Street I saw and waved hello to someone who lives in my building as he was walking the other direction. I smiled some, thinking that the relative unlikelihood of seeing this person so far from the building (6 […]

Don’t know what to know, what not to know, what there is to know. I know nothing, I know everything, but all else I know is that something exists in between nothing and everything. At the library for the first time in a long while, save for just idly passing through. I don’t see any […]

At the coffee shop, using a new bluetooth keyboard for the first time since getting it a couple of weeks ago. This Logitech K380 replaces a previous K380, which developed an annoying habit of switching some keys around. So if I want to put something within quotation marks it would come up as being with […]

OK, since I don’t think that last payphone call worked and because I’d rather be anywhere but at home, I am at the coffee shop, reprising what I attempted to report earlier. I seem to have finally achieved the success I thought I had reached a few days ago, with regard to getting a radio […]

Alright, then, back on the ferris wheel of life, or rather the trampoline, the Weeble that can’t not wobble. Feeling fine now but guilty, and undeserving of anything. Wrote some stuff from home, now writing again at the ghetto coffee shop, which isn’t really all that ghetto except once in a while when someone walks […]

Today felt accomplishful. I listened back to some recordings I forgot all about. It’s from February 20, the day I walked to the Unisphere and back, a trek which must rank among my most epic. At a certain point it felt like I was abusing myself, as I now recall from listening to the tracks. […]

How is that the standard? How is anything the standard. Discussion lead to discussions lead to concussions and repercussions. I am traveling without moving, unraveling without behooving, babbling without disproving. It is a never never land of constipation and triangulation incinerated by infiltrations. Where are the questions? Who thinks to ask if a cherry is […]

He asks forgiveness of his friends, takes his leave of them, and commends them to Cod. OK, that posting made no sense without context. I’ve been reading The Hour Of Our Death and this was a quote from that book, where “God” was misspelled “Cod”, and this was not in the context of a burial at […]

The dude who cuts my hair, I cannot tell if he seriously has a beef with how long I wait between haircuts. Today he said something like “Why don’t you wait another three months?” Then he commented on the quantity of hair left on the… what do you call the sheet he puts over me? […]

Sweet Emotion. That is not what I am feeling. It is the song on the speakers here at the bar. I spent a few hours at the SASB today, not exactly doing research but sizing up what resources are available on-site only and what they are really good for. Still not certain but the NEWSBANK […]

Nothing is ever easy. Right? Today’s PRAY hunting turned up not much, but not quite nothing. I contacted a Bellevue historian and the author of the book I  described before as having the bad citation. The latter appears to have not written another book since that one, the former will probably just ignore me, because […]

So then, yesterday I was kind of all over the place. I walked from home to Penn Station via Sutton Place and First Avenue to Rockefeller Center and then down to the SASB, where the much-anticipated footnote awaited. I had found a book online, called “Getting Up”, which chronicled the graffiti scene in New York […]

Another first-in-a-while excursion finds me at the Rose Main Reading Room for the first time in maybe 2 years. It does not enchant me like it used to, but then nothing does, save, perhaps for PRAY. She is why I am here, to research a single footnote I spotted in an online book excerpt, one […]

Have not done this in a while. At the ghetto coffee shop, where a dude nearby is screaming into his cell phone. What is he saying? I had thoughts to relevate but the scampering, trilling sound of Greek has shaken them from the treebranches of my unrooted mind. I’ve been listening back and editing down […]

My mother at the JFK Airport poking her finger into my chest saying, your father and I are very proud of you. I could laugh. I was like, you guys did not get on board with the MT locomotive until the train left the Tampa Amtrak  Still…, i remember looking away

Feels as if I I have not done this in a long time. The .MOBI. I miss the .MOBI. It was my unique little thing. It was self-serving and gratuitous at times, but if ever I look back at it I find something I would not have remembered, or good ideas. I guess I should […]

I have never been in charge of any kind of alumni reunion related decisions. I don’t go to those events. I did go to a high school event on the 5 year anniversary but I think that was the only one. An interesting challenge would be to match up two people who did not know […]

It is interesting to me to notice how often people say things about me and themselves that are not true. While what I guess you could call reminiscing with an ex-girlfriend about our time together many many years ago she said something about how she remembered what a fabulous cook I was, and how creative […]

Using the WordPress Android app for the tablet. Never have made much use of this. I tried it a few weeks ago and was surprisingly impressed. I am watching the people walk past. There goes one of the surly cashiers from the Key Food, the store which used to be the Food World. I  remember […]

I wish I had taken pictures of the mens bathroom at Rockefeller Center, the one near the entrance to the “Today” show. It was closed for a few weeks for renovation and now it’s open again. Sparkly clean and new, though not radically different from how it was before. Not much has changed at Rockefeller […]

Just for the record, for whoever reads it or thinks it should be recorded, I just came as close as I have since the ER visit to returning there. Took three whole panic pills and needed what must have been over an hour to start feeling close to normal again. Still kind of shaking. In […]

I did not notice until I changed course, that I was feeling a sense of anticipatory elevation that precedes walking up onto the Ed Koch/Queensboro Bridge. My mind enters a sort of survivalist mode as I approach and then first set foot up there. I think it’s a base instinct. What if the bridge collapses? […]

It’s all covered with snow. It’s all covered with snow. It’s all covered with snow. It’s all covered with snow.

THE BOX Someone tells me these things. I cannot say who, why, when, or what. Information is privileged and stuffed in a wood box once filled with opium and disaster. More inventory has emerged from the box than could ever have fit within. I have seen trumpets, corn harvests, and thickening echoes of humming light […]

I just overheard someone make a comment that rings true on many levels. He said to somebody “There is your side of the story, then there’s their side of the story, and then there is what really happened.” Yes. So many narratives we craft about our lives are the stuff of fantasy, for better or […]

See you guys on Wednesday.

I don’t want to talk about it. But it is almost enough to make me want to cry. I feel bad, am bad. Remembering a woman at Queens Plaza a couple of weeks ago who repeatedly shouted “I DON’T FEEL GOOD, AND IT’S PISSING ME OFF!” I heard her shouting this plaintive wail at least […]

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As exhausted as I am you’d think I just played a full concert. Got my 90 minutes worth out of room 12 at Astoria Soundworks. I remember a ew years after playing my first real gig in a long time I slept until 5PM. Nothing so extreme this time, I don’t think, though I guess […]

Not to make light of the matter in any possible way, but… Yesterday when I turned on the radio and heard of the situation in Las Vegas my first thought was: “O.J.?” And you know, when I had that thought I was not even joking or thinking it ludicrous that O.J. Simpson’s first order of […]

Another day another mini-adventure. I thought I’d go to the Newport Centre Mall but when the first PATH train out of 33rd Street was not going there I said fuggit, and went to Hoboken. I have been there before but I can’t remember how long it’s been since I last wandered around there. I built […]

Second .MOBI of the day, this time from ghetto coffee shop. I recorded a short audio bit but have not done anything with it or the other sounds. I just e-mailed a friend who might know about such things to ask if he knows anything about getting gigs as a classical musician on board cruise […]

Here I am at the Windmill. I tried to work here on Monday but the gate was closed. Today there is a lot of noise from the school yard and from someone blasting music from a radio and SINGING ALONG WITH IT. I walked from 101st Street and West End Avenue to Union Square yesterday, […]

I did not know this tape existed. Whoosh. NO MEMORY of playing Robert Helps at the Bitter End. Awesome. For him, that is! Haha. And then I played Henry Cowell. Meh, pedestrian compared to Helps and Glass… Or no? I used to be quite the musician. At the end of this I remember people shaking […]

This matter of listening to all my old cassette tapes has been… enlightening? I don’t know. It’s interesting how many answering machine messages and corporate vcoiemails I saved, as if I thought I would need them 20 or 25 years later. Most people I know now, since the voicemail era has prevailed for so long, […]

Yesterday turned out to be epic. I made it up onto the walkway of the George Washington Bridge. I went up to see something I guess I’ll never be able to see again: An unobstructed view of the Hudson River. On account of the suicides that seem to plague that bridge it’s been decided that […]

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I tried to call it in today from a payphone on 21st Street. Nothing doing. I’ve no idea why but the call did not record. I neglected to finish the Irma story. In fact the story of what happened with my contacts and relatives in Florida ended yesterday. The house in which I grew up […]

The questions are never lost on me during these adventures in sobriety: Who cares? Does it even matter? Am I too far gone? Does my body stop wanting to be healthy? The body has responded as it typically does. I eat, eat, and eat. I’ve put on 4-5 pounds since last week. Then the body […]

This journey through a couple of bags full of old cassettes turned up an unexpectedly depressing reel. 45 minutes of me talking from the Red Carpet Inn in Daytona Beach about my father’s suicide. I remember feeling the melodrama of this sentiment as I said it but I said it anyway: There is a stain […]

I’d been watching the weather from Florida so much that when I looked out the window here I expected high winds and pelting rain. Hah. Beautiful day here. Diane said she got wrong information about the mandatory 8pm power outage yesterday. It might actually be tonight, or it might not be at all. Some forecasts […]

After following the Florida storm coverage for much of the last 2 days I went outside here today expecting stiff winds and pelting rain. Nothing of the kind. A beautiful day. Still a little worried about that old house in Tampa (and the people in it) but all we can do now is wait.Talked to […]

Watching the maps, the spaghetti models. They have it tearing across Tampa as a Cat 4. My niece, in Fort Lauderdale, is 8 months pregnant and apparently cannot leave. The other niece evacuated from St. Petersburg to Tallahassee. I guess they are my step-nieces, since they are from my sister’s husband’s previous marriage. Doesn’t really […]

Doing what I seldom do, which is discarding stuff I don’t need or forgot I even had. Got all nostalgic about the boxes in which were shipped many of the gadgets I’ve owned over the years. Packaging is seductive. Good packaging, that is. Next step is to purge a few boxloads of those old music […]

“Do you want to be known for your writing, or for your swift email responses?” – article at Catapult.co The truth is, I do need to cancel plans regularly. I need to disappear for a few days or even months to attend to my writing. Friends or lovers who resent this, who interpret it as […]

Crossed paths with two exes the other day, within a few minutes of each other. One isn’t really an ex. That was L., the Dalliance, the Huge Mistake Averted, the Bullet Dodged. I changed direction to avoid anntoy kind of encounter, and I’m reasonably sure she noticed. But I don’t even care. The only takeaway […]

I have not done authentic .MOBI in a while. Last posting COMPROMISED MY INTEGRITY by posting from home. At present I am out to see what activity circles around the eclipse. I made an effort yesterday to procure a set of the eclipse glasses but no one in Astoria had them. I made it as […]

I have seen the Dark Web. I may not have delved any deeper than the Deep Web, although links to alleged CP (you know what that stands for) sites were all over the place. But I think there were actually more pleas from site owners to not even discuss that matter than there seemed to […]

They greeted me like I was a celebrity. And, to be real, in some circles I guess I would qualify as a very minor public figure. This was the group of activists that want to do away with LinkNYC or else take a different approach. I don’t think it is within anyone’s authority to have […]