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A topless woman was seen yesterday on Fulton street, just walking around, protecting her bald head from the sun with a flowery umbrella. I did a double take and abruptly looked away, chuckling at myself over the...

The sudden death of the Payphone Radio Shoutcast stream took me by surprise, to say the least. cheapshoutcast.com has been a rock solid reliable hosting platform for me for over 5 years. I remember one weekend of downtime, and...

Twice in the last few months I’ve experienced something I don’t remember ever occurring. Last night I went to sleep early, about 6:30pm, after a very exhausting day navigating the medical system. I woke up at about...

I am poor because I choose poverty. I am a poorie. If I subsist that satisfies me. I like electronic toys and gadgets and have indulged in those expenses in the past, but not anymore. I am unable to contribute to the economy in...

Sockless at work. A first for me. White people don’t like to show their feet, as a Romanian woman once extolled unto me. I don’t need the discomfort or the extra layer. Still, I surveyed this workplace and found that...

Lots of people sleeping on the 4 train today. More than I’m used to seeing. Maybe they stand out more because it’s Saturday and less crowded, or maybe it’s because I switched subway cars twice on the ride...

I have a theory that the only subject anyone ever really talks about is food. Even when they are not explicity describing something like the new hot sauce at White Castle, I think someone discussing a scheduling conflict at...

I spotted an unusual job listing in the piano world. Being a pianist is an asset but it’s more about schmoozing with wealthy customers and institutions. Pianos are not for the poor. They are trophies, or glossy furniture...

Watching an old video of myself playing a recital, live event, people gathered voluntarily to inspect and discuss… I have not watched it again in recent weeks but somehow it surfaced in my head today, while waiting to...

Dreamed last night my sister had a son or daughter named Jing-Ding Ding and a single bedbug in her house. It did not look like a bedbug to me but that was Jing-Ding’s verdict on the species/genus/phyla/whatever of this...

what happened? I arrived at 6pm, next thing I knew it was 1:30pm the next day. Or so it seemed in the moment. I was awake earlier, around 10am, which is already dangerously off-routine for me. I had fallen off the bed and my...

Working. I like working. I like busy. But is it the right thing for me? Paycheck to paycheck, a salary that puts me well below the New York City poverty line, no ambition or realistic scenario would have me leave New York for...

Yesterday’s threat of rain sent my daily constitutional into the subways and the much-loathed Oculus. Fulton Street station is pretty sprawling, with the 2/3 lines over on William Street to the R/W on Cortlandt. I’ve...

Being insatiable has its prices. She complains-doesn’t-complain about the pain. She sent what sounds like any dude’s text message from a dream. And it is. She wanted me to know she has trouble walking now after our...

That is a common greeting here on Friday’s, even though many people who say those words or else respond affirmatively to it work the weekend. I wish the people in this room would cease their conversation, their petty,...

Once again, a post title that I don’t know why. I have nothing to say about changeling, which I initially spelt without the necessary “e”. I’d like to change myself. Swap myself into someone else’s...

I don’t know why I called this post “The last thing.” I had some sad dreams last night. Very vibrant and scary in their way. In one I woke up to find I had a telephone device embedded in my ear. I was unaware...

Dreamed my right kneecap was a rotary device that was removable, opening access to what I do not know. Knee juice? Knee gnomes? I was reminded of a dream from high school involving another student at the school, someone I had...

I started playing a video game yesterday. For a brief, deeply cynical and sarcastic moment, I heard a voice deep inside me squeal “I LOVE THIS GAME SO MUCH. LLLLLLLLOOOOOVE!!!” It’s not really true. The...

Yesterday, as I passed a group of 3 or 4 men unloading boxes from a truck, I heard one of them say, in reference to me, “Look at the shape of that guy.” I’m not obsessed with my body image but I had to ask...

This Jetpack editor makes no sense!

I have to ask myself: Where am I? What am I doing? How did I get here? Will this be the last breath, or the first? What do the unpredictable pains in my innards tell me? I am happy to be here, on this spot, on this chair in this...

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I interviewed for a promising sounding job last week, but on reflection I don’t think I can remain in consideration. The hours are from 10pm-6am, and I did some reading on how working that shift can create health risks. I...

After literally tearing apart Saturday’s pants I decided to go sartorial and replace those hated, filthy, nearly-transparent pants with credible, opaque leg and crotch and butt coverings that would not expose my sometimes...

My usual morning routine involves feeding my head with garbage news of the day, articles I typically only read half way, if that much, retaining little more than the headline. I’ve learned to avoid following headlines that...

I don’t think I will ever be able to impress upon her just how random it was when we reconnected and she dialed in to my Payphone Radio. With over 60 hours (I think) of audio she tuned in just for a couple of minutes,...

I got a laugh out of this. I’m at the office when I looked at my phone and saw a text message from an unknown number. It said “How is your life in New York?” I did not recognize the number but the message...

I gave Blank Street Coffee a try. I won’t return. The place lived up to its name in many ways. Most irritatingly to me was the store’s refusal to issue a paper receipt. That is actually legal for purchases under $5...

Moving domains from overpriced godaddy to namecheap has taken months, and remains in progress. I have too many domain names. For some reason I’ve lately fielded inquiries about sorabji.com being for sale. It is not for...

I momentarily thought I might be incontinent. I had relieved myself and, per human nature, I briefly basked in the afterglow of having taken a reasonably credible dump. While remaining seated I heard trickling of liquid. I...

Nothing to remember, so far, from this day. I am alone at the job today. Staffing at this gig is unpredictable. Feels like I barely slept. Too much vodak, I fear. Hot amd miserable outdoors. I’m at a desk, sweatless. My...

But the crowds remain. Heat got at me on Albany and Greenwich. Felt I might tip over. Took some shaded shelter on Thames Street, where I solemnly watched an elderly couple enter the Cloud One Hotel,  but don’t remember...

Animal has a stronger punch than fluky expectationalists expected. I knew of this since childhood, after years of training to be a kangaroo boxer in the underground runaround. I was good but the ‘roos triumphed night after...

I turned around to see if someone had entered the elevator after me. There was a sound, likely caused by the door closing, that made me think I was not in the elevator alone. No one else was present. The car smelled of piss. I...

When is time unwasted? Wasteless. When do efficiencies and bullseyes come together to maximize not just the moment but the hours, weeks, years that led to this. When do the gears turn with a frenzy of conception and birth and...

I told her what I’ve told others: “I’m a pain in the ass to sleep with.” She started to correct me, until I clarified that I meant actual sleep, not the other stuff. It was nice to be corrected, though....

I have not worn a rubber band on my wrist, probably since grade school. This one is a little too tight. It has been reprovisioned after serving to keep a container of strawberries sealed shut. Not vacuum sealed, just holding the...

Something decidedly weird happened at the computer yesterday. I am at work, where I had, until a couple of months ago, refused to use the work PCs to log into any of my personal accounts. I don’t necessarily trust this...

I get so used to seeing myself that way, and being that way, that it seems impossible to avoid a future where all of it gets revealed, raw and lazy. I won’t complain. Worlds will keep turning. Oceans will not empty. I will...

I don’t know if I spell it correctly, but one of my father’s made-up hillbilly words was “‘schpital.” Guess what it means. Go ahead… Hospital. He made up many word-substitutes but this one...

I know little about anything. I look at a map and see infinite spaghetti, endless intertwined miles of lives lived with furyless disenchantment. Spectacles and passing fads blast through skies among comets and blobs of octopus...

Is everything fantasy? Are dreams unfulfilled no matter how hard we lie to ourselves? Do we dine from impossible platters never served? Are lovers invisible or simply not there? When do dreams become taxable? Become taxes...

I booked a few days off of work, giving me a sizzling 5-day streak of not spending my day quiet-quitting a job that has no future and, impressively, also feels like it has no past. It is going to be hot as balls, putting my...

Something no other woman has ever said to me was spoken yesterday. As she stroked and held me she said “I am not one to admire, but that is handsome.” She later added that “Back in the day,” referring to...

A catty bark sends the city into pity, erasing guardian protections and stewardships which formerly smoothed transitions between Jack and Jill. I formulated certain of the negotiations and strategies that led to this condition,...

And I’m already nervous. Usually I get here before 8am but subways were twisted asunder today with the MTA app providing meaningless information and in-station signs and announcements making no sense, seemingly on...

She gets them. Sometimes they are vulgar. What am I saying… they are always vulgar. She is not fine with it but nothing can really be done. The people who shout at her scramble off, or else they are obviously disturbed or...

She uses the word a lot, in various forms. “I’m happy” “Happiness.” “Happyhappy.” Cooking for me and feeding me makes her happy. My happiness is her happiness. She strokes my hair when I...

We walked yesterday. Around Ridgewood, around the block, around this one-horse town. The neighborhood-y feel of Ridgewood drastically turns to blight at Flushing Avenue, where we briefly visited the Onderdonk House. That...

Is a word I use often but I do not mean it. Nothing is understood. I stood under nothing with respect to what you just explained to me. If I stood under your beliefs it would imply I supported them or advocated their merits and...

Got some sun yesterday, more than I’ve absorbed in a long while. Today there’s a headache and some burn on my neck. How I suffer. I was working on other things but when I saw the bright, hot sun beating down I could...

I didn’t want to let it go. Did I even have to? Was it mandatory that I shower and wash my face clean of the honey? I suppose it was. The better part of decorum prevailed. I whispered to her that I did not want to let it...

Feels like I have something to say but, as often, there is in fact nothing there. Void. Emptiness fills my sanity and my soul. A whirring hum of zeroes and nulls. I wore long sleeves today. Long sleeved shirt. It seemed...

This workplace can be very uncomfortable on weekends and holidays. While other sections of the building are air conditioned they choose, for whatever reason, not to activate a/c on this area. The other side of the floor, where...

She said she wants to “ride this train” as long as possible. It’s like semi-retirement, but she’s not the sort who looks for an ending. There is always something else on the horizon, some new adventure or...

First Starbucks in I don’t know how long. I forgot how gross I find it. Acidic, muddy, tastes a bit like pipe. Sandy pipe. My other options were unavailable and time was running short so I did what I had to do, got what I...

At work. On the job. Feeling icy inside. Earthquake in NJ last night. Radio commentators were confusing, making it sound like a 4.8 had hit. THis job is a zero for me now. I quiet quit many months ago. You cannot expect someone...

I found an odd quirk at arhive.org yesterday. A search for “sorabji” turned up a number of expected results, meaning the name “sorabji” was somewhere in the title or description. But one item caught my...

That was a word of the day yesterday. She said she loves how I greet the day with “nothing.” Completely naked, not a sock, not a shirt, not even my glasses with which to see. She’s not wrong. Typically I spend...

The account I rarely tell anybody, but it’s long enough in the past that it doesn’t matter anymore. All of it, the context and the details, are forgotten now to all but me. I am prone to abusive relationships, and...

Before the Loaner Scope- FAMO was introduced through my anus and advanced to the cecum and identified by appendiceal orifice and ileocecal valve, the doctor in charge of the procedue asked if I was nervous or concerned. I said...

Trying something I’ve yet to do from this job, which I have held for over 2 years now. I have never mixed personal activities or creative output with being here at this position. It seemed wrong, and it seemed probably...

Like a lot of people, since Covid I have lost any sense of time. Months pass like days, weeks pass like minutes, or the opposite sensation where a day feels like a year. I was commenting on a grocery store that had “just...

I have a powerful weapon. All others pale in its overpowering bombast and colorized omnipresence. I cannot identify it, for that would loosen its grip. Tools and powers should never be revealed or boasted of.

I was asleep early, maybe around 7:00pm, after a long and draining day, when I woke up around 7:30pm. Unaware I had only slept a half hour I thought I had slept a full night, over 12 hours, and that I had better get going to not...

Had an idea here but let it slip away. Slip slide slippery slope, sloppy slippers sliding subtly into substreams of gaseous elements. Walked past an early morning class that was commencing at a place where cement workers get...

What would the last 33 years have been like had we never parted ways? This relationship, if I can call it that, interests me intellectually more than any I can remember. We seem to get each other, although with age comes...

Conversation yesterday made me realize that I talk on the phone to virtually nobody. I used to say I hated having full conversations via text, but that seems to have become normal for me. I have not heard my sister’s voice...

Feeling normal again, whatever normal even means. Now it means not running a temperature, not feeling a soreness in my throat that makes swallowing any food a painful challenge, not gagging when I brush my tongue (I now know...

Whoever found or finds the bag I lost this week is in for an unusual assortment of detritus. My work photo ID, which has my name and place of employment, was stashed in a bag with some condoms and some Lipton tea bags. There may...

I don’t know how, but I seem to have lost my company ID card. That makes no sense in any world but after 20 minutes searching this AM I gave up. It has to be somewhere. But the upshot for now is that, after sneaking into...

I’m not getting lucky with the wakeup routines this week. First the kitchen sink spring a leak beyond my ability to fix. The landlord came and fixed it quickly, but not after I spent a morning hauling a very full bucket of...

Bad, restless, sleepless sleep. Woke up asking myself if I really got any sleep at all. No time for dreams. Have a sore throat and do not know why. Slept with mouth open, I suspect. Had trouble with the shower, too. Somehow...