In advance of potential encounters with the opposite sex this week I got tested. No results yet. I have felt somewhat slow and tired but I’ve been taking the 2mg Lorazapam and th BP pills, so that can slow down my otherwise overactive mental machinations. 

The nasal swabs sparked a near sinus event, but I got through it with just a couple of nose blows. 

When anticipating a sexual encounter I straighten up the apartment, but not too much. Don’t want to look like a neat freak when I’m not. Don’t want to lie, is what I mean. I also shave my balls and make sure the condoms are still in my everything bag, which now includes emergency supplies of all my meds, including Omeprazole, which had not made it to the everything bag on account of me never forgetting to take it first thing.

But I forgot a few tims lately, which is no good, though store-bough Omeprazole seems to work just as well. I seem to remember, though, talk of a serious condition that develops if you switch back and forth between certain PPIs. I think they were talking abobut switching between omeprazole and Prilosec? Or somethinng like that.

With regard to my most promising prospect I’m hoping she hosts, since my a/c situation is  pretty abysmal. But then maybe hers is as well.

Why do I do this? What makes me think I need sex? I don’t even know.

I spent part of the morning watching a young woman lying naked in bed sucking on a 6″ dildo. She looked sweet and sincere, with me asking “Why don’t I do that? Just sit online sucking a dildo all day while people throw money at me?”

I actually did get talked into sucking a dildo when I was with a  woman last summer. She was nuts but got me to do some new things, which I guess is a positive. 

I bought her the dildo, noting it was the same size and girth as mine. She had fun with it but one night, unexpectedly, she got me to suck on it. She just wanted to see what I looked like with cock in my mouth.

She might never laugh so hard again. I wasn’t sure to feel like laughin along with her or to feel embarrassed for my dignity. She said I looked so bizarre, and I concurred that it felt pretty alien to me. 

Long story short I just don’t like cock. She was the opposite, a dream come true for many men but kind of a monotonous bore for me after four hours. 

Gotta work!  Tested negative according to rapid results… whoosh