Here’s an IRC log I mentioned in the previous posting. It’s from 23 years ago.
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[rachel] i had a nap. i think maybe i feel a little better
[rachel] but i’m not sure.
[rachel] and i still wanna get laid.
<sorabji> i hope you are.
<sorabji> i hope you do.
<sorabji> 😉
[rachel] hehehehe
<sorabji> i got some sleeping pills at the pharmacy
[rachel] ooh, scary
<sorabji> they didn’t help last night, but i’ll double up tonight
<sorabji> and while i was waiting for the prescription, i noticed that they were selling YOHIMBE
<sorabji> have you ever dealt w/yohimbe?
[rachel] i’ve heard about it
[rachel] you tried trazodone for the sleeping instead?
[ACTION] sorabji never used Yohimbe. no need for it, don’t suppose.
<sorabji> trazodone? never heard. i take ambien.
<sorabji> you take traz..?
<sorabji> ambien seems good, but i think i’m getting too used to it
[rachel] lotsa folx double up traz with prozac, if they have trouble sleeping
<sorabji> you’re still on prozac?
[rachel] i don’t take it unless i’m fuckin desperate cause it knocks me totazlly out, and then i’d rather drink.
<sorabji> i thought you’d said it was outdated, kind of
[rachel] yeah
[rachel] i’m thinking i wanna start lithium, i don’t know what to do
<sorabji> i haven’t had a drink since february
<sorabji> and i haven’t missed it.
[rachel] wow
<sorabji> because i still do the exact same stupid shit
[rachel] cool
[rachel] prozac outdated? not really
[rachel] whatever works, man
<sorabji> you said i could link to your page, right?
<sorabji> from my page.
[rachel] yeah, totally
<sorabji> was going to link to the “un-decaffeinated home of woman.”
[rachel] hahahaha, i love it
<sorabji> my page will be neat, but it might not work for anything but netscape..
<sorabji> was going to post depression and suicide stories, but i thought better of it
[rachel] heh
<sorabji> mostly because i saw that so many other people were doing that exact thing.
<sorabji> posting their therapist stories.
<sorabji> so it didn’t seem too original.
[rachel] …..prblem with lithium is if i did start i’d totally have to cut down on my caffeine, sodium, and alcohol, and that’s most of my diet right there.
[rachel] heh
<sorabji> is lithium like really heavy shit?
<sorabji> i’ve only heard of it
[rachel] like yeah, pretty much. gotta totally monitor blood levels and all
[rachel] as in just general side effects, can be tremors, if your lithium level gets too high it’s bad news
<sorabji> hmm..idunno. in retrospect it was kind of fun losing my mind last night.
<sorabji> maybe i’ll do it every night
[rachel] it’s scary how alluring it is
<sorabji> i missed the meeting w/my therapist
[rachel] whoops.
<sorabji> thought it was tonight, but it was at 12:30
<sorabji> she was really pissed.
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[rachel] so. should i a) go where i know i’ll find this chick monique, who i barely know, and beg her on my hands and knees to show me the wonderful ways of women, or b) call up tim, who i know very well, and just go for drinks?
<sorabji> go with monique and gimme all the lurid details when you get home
[rachel] hahahahaha
<sorabji> monique, what does she have in mind for you?
[rachel] probably nothing but i do know she’s totally lookin for someone
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<sorabji> it sounds like it could be fun, if nothing else.
[SERVER] woman :No such nick/channel
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[rachel] it’s a struggle to keep from doing things i know will hurt me
[rachel] i have to get out of here but i don’t know where to go
<sorabji> is it cold out?
<sorabji> do you just want to go outside?
<sorabji> i mean that can be pretty intoxicating, going around and not knowing where you’re going.
<sorabji> don’t take anything valuable with you.
<sorabji> it’ll make you feel safer.
<sorabji> more ready for trouble, if it comes.
<sorabji> now i feel like going out, too…..
[rachel] i don’t know i don’t know
[rachel] i’m afraid to go out alone at night
[rachel] yeah, well, i wanna get laid but i don’t fuckin wanna get raped.
<sorabji> i know…. i mean i get like that all the time, but it’s so dangerous
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[rachel] you awake?
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[rachel] really.
<sorabji> We’re all meeting, Shrink, MD, and me, to talk about it.
<sorabji> Not certain, but pretty likely.
[rachel] cool
<sorabji> It’s supposed to fix things, right?
<sorabji> It’s not dangerous, is it?
[rachel] it can make things nice and even, yes — gotta watch the blood levels relatively closely, it’s a bit messier than other drugs
<sorabji> Messy? Like diarreah? Brain-spills?
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[rachel] as in just general side effects, can be tremors, if your lithium level gets too high it’s bad news
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