i just told somebody i feel fine. it seems like a possibly inappropriate response to the question “how are you doing?” but i said it. it’s out there. let the words curdle in the oblivion of indifference. Christ, that almost sounded like MLK. THE APATHETIC WHITE WHO SO TOOK HIS RIGHTS FOR GRANTED THAT THEY CURDLED IN THE OBLIVION OF HIS OWN INDIFFERENCE.
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free money landed today, right on schedule. now i do the work of speccing a new PC configuration and preparing for all the annoyance that comes with actually using a new PC. i don’t plan to spend anywhere near as much money on business expenses this year. a new PC an dmaybe a new DLSR body. i still contemplate a new piano. i am glad to have tamped my enthusiasm for moving. i came back to the same question as ever: Why? if there’s no need or reason then why force the issue and delve into the risks and hassles of uprooting? WHY, GOD, WHY?
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that something special i’d been looking for at the 181 finally arrived today. that was a nice thing. i also got 2 new Charlie Brown t-shirts, of the 4 i expect. i am wearing one at this moment.
i am tired tired tired from lack of sleep. i bounded out of bed early, for no good reason except that i have no one to impress today and no reason to be particularly sharp. i want to get up earlier, so i can go out earlier and be among sober human beings.
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