I took 60mg of Nifidipene (sp?) and 1.5mg of lorazapam. Nifi is for BP, Loraz is for anxiety. Together these two pills bring me down to earth, albeit with a feeling that I’d been on fire before. Burnmarks from the flames are felt across my brain.
This is what “good” is supposed to be. I remember it, from periods of childhood and even college. There have been passages and times when I remember feeling alirhgt.
But I can’t be that way all the time.
I hear people talk about their lives as if it is one continuous unit of time. No years, save for the two on either side of the hyphen on your tombstone.
I want to understand time better than I do. I want to understand its statis, its progress, even its compromises. I’ll look for a bookk called “Understanding Time.” I am certain that book will answer all my questions.
