Subway babes

There are a few women on the subways I used to pay attention to. I know I still would if they had not all disappeared on me. It’s all about me, right. Me and my orbit.One woman I follow, lightly, through her blog and web...

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Time and Happiness

What Time Is It? What TIme Is Time?I woke up early, felt good without knowing why, and had to check multiple time pieces to be sure I had not slipped through some crackle in time.The thought was not completely without basis. My...

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Taken care of

I lived the dream almost exactly 20 years. From February 28, 2002, until January 14, 2022, I worked from home. Set my schedule, made my agendæ, lived a life many thought they craved. Believe you me, it’s not easy. You are...

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I know what time it is

I know what time it is. I don’t need no time piece, I don’t need no clock. i don’t need to thing to do it tickery hickery tock. Sands of time crawl through my veins, seconds and minutes and hours the same....

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The Punctuationalists

“The Punctuationalists can go hyphenate themselves.”That is the latest salvo from my ever-ending brainchew of a concept that I don’t think there will ever be time enough to articulate.In this saga-agas I...

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Morning mental stramble (NSC)

Tomorrow I don’t know. Where. What. Why. Someone mentioned that I looked like I’d gotten some sun. Indeed, I got a little burned from Sunday’s jaunt to Rockaway and Riis. The white shirt I wore, I think,...

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Highlights

First call of the day  was someone saying “YOU’RE AN ASSHOLE.” I don’t remember what I said but his response was “ANYONE WHO WOULD ANSWER THIS PHONE IS AN ASSHOLE.” That was a zesty start to...

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A Structured Life? Yes, Please.

I started writing a story with this title, but took it to a different editing space. It’s not for this. This is my morning mental stramble, pecked into existence from my desk, which is not always the same spot. I like...

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Interesting characters

SOmeone wanted to know what time it was. It was 12:12pmSomeone named LOU claimed Brooklyn will entirely be swallowed by a sinkhole on 7th Avenue.A woman wanted homeless shelter accommodation rather than live in an abusive...

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Faces

There are two faces that flash through my mind virtually every single day, during my morning ablutions. One is Jonas Salk, the other Jack Welch.Salk’s iconic portrait, in which his profile is seen holding a syringe or...

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Vomit cleared

Yesterday, exiting the Fulton Street station, I spotted a pool of vomit on the floor next to a homeless person I regularly see sleeping on the surface next to the vomit. It reminded me of an infamous  incident which could still...

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Happiness

I deactivated FB after posting something and, surprisingly, made a visible connection to someone I want no one knowing I have anything with which to do. It’s nothing scandalous. We consummated, and she liked it way more...

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Locker Lore

I remember when Amazon’s lockers were new. I read somewhere, Times I guess, that such delivery mechanisms had been common in Europe for a long time. I just found it neat to know that I could turn any of these locations...

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Not so distant

As the morning ablutions evolved I had a distantly familiar feeling. What am I talking about, it’s not that distant. I began to think I had committed self harm last night.This was a rough weekend. Strange, too. I’d...

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Perk

Someone I almost never talk to here at work (I talk to almost nobody, now that I think of it) commented that I seemed “perky” this week. It’s strange she would notice but she has been prone to droll,...

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Dreams

Since Wednesday all my dreams, and even a good portion of my idle waking thoughts, have been all sexed over. Last night’s dreams included rarities for me: Encounters with women I’ve been with in the real, in the...

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Tiger

She was a tiger. Wow. I barely slept after she left. My first rumble since March, and what a riot. We’d never met in person but chemistry on the phone and via chat was all good. Ruggedly good-looking, 51, black, NYPD...

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Early

At work early.The rule of thumb used to be, for me at least, that you wait 6 months between involvements before dating again. It’s only been less than 4 for me but the last one was barely worth a mention in the ripple-fest...

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Day

Yesterday was a hot but fun stramble around payphone carcasses of Manhattan and Brooklyn. The big find was the working PTS phone at the Brooklyn Library. Whod’a thunk…Might have something going with a Staten Island...

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Got tested

In advance of potential encounters with the opposite sex this week I got tested. No results yet. I have felt somewhat slow and tired but I’ve been taking the 2mg Lorazapam and th BP pills, so that can slow down my...

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Commission on Human Behavior

That’s what I will call it. There will be custom-made forms for each individuation. Language will be brutal, but honest and transparent in its intentions. The CoHB is here to improve you as a member of society, to address...

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Behavior Police

I was thinking of this today, whilst crossing the street. There are people among us who grade you, grade everybody, whether they do it consciously or  not, whether they literally assign a letter grade to your behavior and your...

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Lunch

Getting an expensive coffee at a place I don’t know what to make of.Feeling weird I think on account of heat but also taking a full 2mg of Lorazapan today. Really has me feeling loopy, and even a little clumsy walking...

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I don’t lose things

…so it was unnerving yesterday to lose a debit card.  It’s kind of a debit card. A commuter Card, I think it’s called. I was going to show it off to my friend visiting yesterday when I discovered it was gone....

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Heat

I mighta got too much heat yesterday. I was checking in with an old friend and we felt fine in the shade. But later I walked and walked, as I tend to do. Probably not a good idea. It catches up to you. My routine has been to...

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Other developments

I’m at work early today, so a doube-header for postings.I’ve gotten into a pattern with the anxiety and BP meds. They make the day here seem so much smoother, and quicker. They seem to help make time disappear. So I...

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Strange encounter

Somewhat strange encounter yesterday. As strange as I want it to be? I don’t know. Unless it happens again, which I kind of hope it does, I’ll just let it slip into invisible memory.Making a Payphoen Radio call at...

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Starting to miss my old life

It hasn’t been that long. Exactly 6 months. SInce I started this job. It was a huge adjustment,, no doubt, one made moreso by my hyperactive anxieties and overactive mind. Settling in to a 60-hour a week commitment was not...

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Bad food

When the dude behind the counter hears something other than what I thought I said… I wanted a cheese omelette and two sausage links. By “links” I had in mind the roughly 3-inch long and quarter-inch wide tubes...

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THinking about it again

I’m thinking about dipping into dating again. It’s been since March, technically, since I don’t really count what happened in those few weeks as anything but a perfunctory attempt. Crystal (not her real name)...

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Fun day at Co-Op City

I spent yesterday roaming Co-Op City. It’s on my radar to possibly move there some time in the not-so-distant future. It is a huge, like a city unto itself, with football fields, swimming pools, shopping centers, and best...

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Cameras

The owner of the building in which I live finally decided to install security cameras. He’s making himself look like the hero but so much stuff has been stolen or gone missing over the years but he never cared about...

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Nothing to say…

…except I might be getting somewhere with the cute cashier. I don’t know, though. I don’t know know what she looks like but her demeanor is cute and she has healthy hands. What a difference a mouth makes in...

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After the eargasm

Eargasm. Earigation. Aural enema. Call it what you want but it’s nice to be able to hear again. I didn’t expect to be stuffed into a soundproof chamber for the hearing test. It took a while. But the plucking of wads...

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Hearing

At a Starbucks in Forest Hills. I had to go this for a same-day appointment with an ENT. Hoping this hearing loss is not permanent. THinking it is just earwax buildup, which has happened to me before. I’ve only been to one...

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Woke up screaming

Twice through the night. At least twice, One time I screamed “WHO ARE YOU?” The other time I don’t remember what I said, or if it was articulate. I was certain an intruder was coming at me. That is always a...

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Sweepy day

by sweepy I mean it just seems to sweep itself away, like nothing is here. Took the first of the new batch of lorazapam pills and have to ask if it’s a different manufacturor. THis shit is much stronger than I ex[ected,...

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Various nonsenses

series of nonsenses today mean anyone who calls Payphone Radio at the 212-255-2748 number will be able to leave a voicemail. That’s a scenario I’ve gone out of my to avoid but which today is possible in a way I have...

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Magical thoughts

Reflecting on some of the magical, mellifluous, memorable thoughts that oozed through my head this Friday.I might need an umbrella later today.I like my new umbrella. It’s nice. It’s fancy. I don’t remember the...

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Big bug

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The Sandwich

There is one guy here who is my favorite. I don’t think we’ve exchanged one word of conversation. When we pass in the halls he decisively and demonstrably turns away. He looks down, to the side, anywhere but in my...

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Misquoted, then ignored

An art magazine (online only) lightly rewrote and published the New York Times article from last month about the alleged “last payphone” of New York. I was quoted in the piece, but not really. My comments were...

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Pills

I took 60mg of Nifidipene (sp?) and 1.5mg of lorazapam. Nifi is for BP, Loraz is for anxiety. Together these two pills bring me down to earth, albeit with a feeling that I’d been on fire before. Burnmarks from the flames...

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Slob

I did not realize until I was on the train how much of a fucking slob I look like today. I don’t need to look beautiful for anyone but man, I got the wrong shirt and pants this time. I clean up well when I have to, and for...

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Hamsters?

I was certain this shirt was for the International Brotherhood of Hamsters.

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11/11/11 @ 11:11:11

1:48 PM Friday, November 11, 2011 11/11/11 aha, I missed 11:11:11am. what a moment of masturbational orgiastic frenzy that must have been for one-seekers, for seekers of 1.

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Type type type

I remembersitting at a bar once, typing away with abandon. The bartender came over and asked “Are you writing a novel?” I laughed, somewhat uncomfortably and I’m not sure why of that. I said “I’m...

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What was remarkable

About this morning? Clips of time. Clippings. Yesterday’s meet with a PCP/Psychoanalyst caught me all the way off guard. I left feeling mentally orgasmed. I went in feeling guilty, like a junkie asking for a buzzfix. That...

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Trying to be a Source. Failing.

July 12 2016 Peter – This might not get to you before you head out for vacation, but I just passed the stretch of 13th Street that we talked about earlier, with all the abandoned cars. A few new strange twists since the...

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EEO revenge?

I’ve had some concerns about Saturday’s checking out of work early. I was told “documentation” was required. I  might be able to get my old PCP to back me up, but he’s not my PCP anymore. So far,...

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The earth’s core

A tour guide directed us to the highlights. The  earth’s core comprises billions of unconceived fetuses, the arc of their unwanted lives accruing in the minds of spontaneous, unprepared lovers. Their anxieties and...

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Days like this

Thinking about what difference, if any, having a full-time job for the first time in 20 years has made in my life, in my days. I knew it would be an adjustment, and it was. But almost all those adjustments felt good. I like...

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Taunt

Now I get fresh interference. Yesterday does not resemble the upcoming minute, which itself will not remember a cactus burning to death. Limbering up his bamboo sticks of lies his voice becomes sharp, and rigid. A hungry,...

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Payphone Radio Redux

Payphone Radio got a little weird last week. Some folks found it again, just a few, not the mob scene that tried to call into it back in January.Someone was talking like an Apologista, someone who knew the old Apology Line or at...

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Another avalanche moment

I encountered another waterfall last night. Avalanche. Ocean under which I drown. I may never know how many of those I have. Moving everything from google docs to ms365 seemed like it could be simple. Maybe it will be, but my...

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Booster

Tuesday, May 17, 2022 10:55:57 PM Booster seemed OK at first. Why am I still awake 11 hours on? Haiku.

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Corner office

Hah. Got the corner suite today.  I don’t usually type into my personal void from the work spot but no one is here and no one cares what I do off the clock. I took a panic pill just now, and a BP one as well. I don’t...

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Vestiges

Yesterday was spent, unexpectedly, in pursuit of remnants, or archaelogical evidence, of the payphones of yore. Some have been gone for 2 decades. Others disappeared more recently. They are everywhere, though, so long as you...

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Humans

Someone on the street walks up to you. Or maybe you walk up to them. you don’t know what is in their head, what room they just stepped out of, or what space they are preparing to enter. They might want to enter your space,...

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Tiny tragedies

The place I usually get a cheese omelette and a banana every morning decided to stop giving out plastic fork and knife packages that include salt and pepper. I must now request salt and pepper packets. The plastic utensil (now...

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Eyes

There is a woman I see on the subway at least once a week. For a while we would cross paths every single day, it seemed. We enter and exit the train at the same stations, exiting at Fulton Street. At least that’s how it...

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text dribble

pointy words garbageboard buns buggy peanuts stun ape (eap!) 10 hours in the short life of a hemmeroid beestormers too ticklish on the taco truck instant stratification seedful salads she walks with a batter waddle sticks in...

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Another Friday

Seems I got a rare gift. 2 days paid leave. Not consecutive days but they end up being that since they precede my usual Wednesday day off. That’s good information, right? Feeling waves of pitifulness today. Pricklings of...

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this and that

Yesterday was fun. Impromptu. If I really wanted to watch low-flying planes I would have gone to Flushing. In the Main Street and surrounding areas it’s like you can see the whites in the eyes of the passengers, the planes...

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Back on the trails

I made it out to the Calvary Cemeteries today. All 4 of them. It was not planned, and the decision to dip into New Calvary was guided by the presence of low-flying planes approaching LaGuardia. They made for interesting video,...

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Not even going to talk about

all that shit I just deleted. Nobody reads this shit anymore so my secrets are safe here, hiding in plain sight.  At a coffee shop, after a day spent bolting up to Mott Haven for what turned out to be no good reason. I rarely...

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