She Sold my Television
I’d been silent on the matter. But for weeks I watched television on a small, soundless, 14″ black and white set that had, without explanation, replaced my big 72″ HD/3D screen. No words. No reason. I felt I...
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I’d been silent on the matter. But for weeks I watched television on a small, soundless, 14″ black and white set that had, without explanation, replaced my big 72″ HD/3D screen. No words. No reason. I felt I...
Read MoreYesterday was one for the amateurs. I felt like death warmed over, and thought I was having a heart attack. Maybe I was. But in the end I decide it was just a stupid fucking hangover, the likes of which has not struck me in...
Read MoreDon’t know why I got here at 7am today. The workplace. I discovered that iKraveit, the local stalwart bodega, is not open 24/7. I was there at 6am and they were closed. I’ve never seen them closed since they opened....
Read MoreI always have plans, ambitions, goals to apply for other jobs or simply quit the job I’m at now. Just walk away with nothing lined up. But I’d be penniless. I’m coming up on 3 years at this job and I have less...
Read MoreI might do more of this today. Typing. Writing into a space unrelated to the job I am being paid to do. I almost never do that. I do it here, in the pre-work hours. People here do not like me. I don’t have a problem with...
Read MoreSomething I’d not spotted, or simply not noticed before, is the people running full tilt down the passageway connecting Fulton Station to the Oculus. The path looks pretty perilous, being at what I’m guessing is a...
Read MoreThe Shit Splift schedule truly makes a healthy work-life balance difficult. Sleeps hygiene becomes a distant chagrin. I alsmot always come in on Thursdays feeling like death warmed over, largely on account of having slept in the...
Read MoreToday was close to bliss, commutably so. The assumption that I will always get a seat in the morning has proven questionable, but I was able to find a corner spot today. I would expect to always be able to score something...
Read MoreCaused my commute to terminate at Canal Street when I was already running late (by my sstandards being less than an hour early is late). It should not have such an effect on me but I am shaking and took another 1mg of the panic...
Read MoreMy near-fantasy of having a blissful commute is shattered. My personal elevator (as I chosse to imagine it) is out of order and taped up with crime-scene looking adhesive strips. Maybe it will be fixed soon or maybe it will be...
Read MoreI’ve come to realize that I enter this office every day assuming that everyone here hates me. I don’t think that’s really true. But this is such a compartmentalized organization. Each individual is like a...
Read MoreYesterday is probably the first time I ever let this happen. I’m not sure. It’s not something for the record books or historical epochry. But I believe I neglected to rinse the shampoo/conditioner out of my hair upon...
Read MoreIn fact it went perfectly. The new Saturday commute has me connecting from the N to the R on the same platform, with only a 3-4 minute wait for the R and no stairs to climb up or down. The R was more crowded than anticipated but...
Read MoreIt can’t be any real mystery. Diet is everything. Today I feel limber and lithe. I don’t hate being here. I don’t hate being alive. I don’t feel like a burden on those around me. Yesterday was another...
Read MoreI felt like I was building a secret museum yesterday. A collection of content so secret that no one will ever see it. It’s not scandalous, at least not by my reckoning. But it is what I envisioned when I started...
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Read MoreDreamed I was tasked with sorting out a bag of apples left behind by a girlfriend 8 years ago. The apples were mostly rotten but the grannysmiths held their skin together. One apple was crawling with some kind of worm or maggot....
Read MoreAgain, it’s like I found a secret passageway. The W from Astoria to Cortlandt is my new path to work, non-stop, seats always available, but only on weekdays. The route ends at Whitehall, which I think is only one or two...
Read MoreI think it’s been about a month since it ended. I did not keep her toothbrush hanging from the bathroom holster this long for any reason except oversight. I removed her bath towel from the inventory and sent it to laundry...
Read MoreI am back to activasting my always-on recording devices that document the view outside the living room window, the activities occurring in my living room, me sleeping in the bedtoom, and my time spent in the shower. THe only...
Read MoreI think 4 days straight is the most I’ve taken off from this job. I may have done 5 days but I’m not sure. I’ve never really taken a vacation the way others do. I am quite sore today and not feeling...
Read MoreSomeone at the workplace singled me out this week for the fact that he sees me walk and walk the walk around the office every day. He sees me getting my steps in and he commended me for it. I don’t know who he is or from...
Read MoreI saw two items yesterday which, in a not-so-distant previous life, would have made my eyes and mouth water. One was a folder containg hundreds, possibly 1,000 35mm slides. They were Kodachrome but not the red frame. In fact,...
Read MoreThe current batch of well-intentioned subway litanies discouraging people from being suicidal clickbait by riding on top of subway cars reminds me, inevitably, of the Florida license plate campaign called “ARRIVE...
Read MoreI had to stop posting excerpts from my Piano Practice Room Radio to my YouTube channel because the algo kept snapping back claiming I was stealing copyrighted content. Apparently my playing sounded too much like Van Cliburn,...
Read MoreThis is, of course, what a Yuja Wang recital/concert performance look like in 2024/2025.
Read MoreNot going to try again. You wasted my time once, you won’t do it twice, not this time at least.
Read MoreIt already is a shit day, starting with some epic nightmares that kept me solidly scared asleep, araid to wake up to this nightmare that felt too real, right up until 5:30. I had been hired to work on some sort of production or...
Read MoreIt seemed like a strange encounter at first. An uncrowded subway train, one man standing by a door reading off his phone when another man, walking half the distance of the car, holds his phone up for the other man to see as he...
Read MoreBack at the office after 4 days away. In the 2-3/4 years I’ve been here I am yet to take what would formally qualify as a vacation. Most consecutive days I got away were 5, but mostly I get 3 or 4 days here and there. I...
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Read MoreI am at home. I do not do much writing here anymore. After a few days away from the office, I let myself try to make this place feel like that word: Home. I don’t know if I can. This place, the space with its hunkering...
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Read MoreIn the Bronx on Wednesday, parked at a gas station.
Read MoreWith my new shoes I no longer make a squeaking, kissing sound every other stpe I take across a linoleum or non-carpeted floor. I am proud of my stature. I no longer sound like a poorie who has not enough money to buy new shoes...
Read MoreI did not see as much of this sort of terracotta stuff as I hoped for in Parkchester yesterday,...
Read MoreOne of my Liszt bags vanished. Its disappearance is incomprehensible to me. How could it have happened? Where did it go? I’m talking about a bag purchased online, a reusable shopping/tote bag graced with an image of Franz...
Read MoreThat is what I feel like today. I am something smarmy. Took an extra half mg of the panic pill but something feels like it will wax and weave my brain matter today. I don’t know why. Slept well, almost too well, until...
Read MoreAt the C-Town on Hugh Grant Circle in Parkchester yesterday I spotted a price of $8 for a pound of FOXY brand strawberries. I’ve never seen strawberries priced so high. For about 2 years now a pound of strawberries has...
Read MoreI would make hours-long videos like this for women who said they loved piano music and wanted to hear/see me play. It had no real-world effect. The women watched the videos over and over but remained null and void, stayed home,...
Read More8am on John Street. It looks like Dave is interviewing a shopping cart and leading a lively...
Read MoreA topless woman was seen yesterday on Fulton street, just walking around, protecting her bald head from the sun with a flowery umbrella. I did a double take and abruptly looked away, chuckling at myself over the...
Read MoreMy tendencies to end up in abusive relationships show no signs of letting up. I foster abuse. I...
Read MoreI knew it was coming. Or going. But to hear strange voices talking sports on my 880AM dial I felt...
Read MoreI keep Telegram installed for innocuous reasons. But any time someone I know appears on Telegram I...
Read MoreThe sudden death of the Payphone Radio Shoutcast stream took me by surprise, to say the least. cheapshoutcast.com has been a rock solid reliable hosting platform for me for over 5 years. I remember one weekend of downtime, and...
Read MoreTwice in the last few months I’ve experienced something I don’t remember ever occurring. Last night I went to sleep early, about 6:30pm, after a very exhausting day navigating the medical system. I woke up at about...
Read MoreI am poor because I choose poverty. I am a poorie. If I subsist that satisfies me. I like electronic toys and gadgets and have indulged in those expenses in the past, but not anymore. I am unable to contribute to the economy in...
Read MoreSockless at work. A first for me. White people don’t like to show their feet, as a Romanian woman once extolled unto me. I don’t need the discomfort or the extra layer. Still, I surveyed this workplace and found that...
Read MoreYesterday was like my olden days, yesterday and the day before, to be exact. Wandering areas...
Read MoreLots of people sleeping on the 4 train today. More than I’m used to seeing. Maybe they stand out more because it’s Saturday and less crowded, or maybe it’s because I switched subway cars twice on the ride...
Read MoreWatching an old video of myself playing a recital, live event, people gathered voluntarily to inspect and discuss… I have not watched it again in recent weeks but somehow it surfaced in my head today, while waiting to...
Read MoreDreamed last night my sister had a son or daughter named Jing-Ding Ding and a single bedbug in her house. It did not look like a bedbug to me but that was Jing-Ding’s verdict on the species/genus/phyla/whatever of this...
Read Morewhat happened? I arrived at 6pm, next thing I knew it was 1:30pm the next day. Or so it seemed in the moment. I was awake earlier, around 10am, which is already dangerously off-routine for me. I had fallen off the bed and my...
Read MoreBody exhausted after fucking so hard. Love my woman. Love my woman. Can we keep it up like this?...
Read MoreWorking. I like working. I like busy. But is it the right thing for me? Paycheck to paycheck, a salary that puts me well below the New York City poverty line, no ambition or realistic scenario would have me leave New York for...
Read More“sore where you want to be sore” is a running gag between my girlfriend and me. Does it need an explanation? When she reported having trouble walking she further added that she was not complaining. Just reporting. I...
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