Mysteries

I read a long blog post from someone talking about growing up in a smallish town in Florida. I grew up in Florida, so on that small basis I identified. There is a mystery in every river, and intrigue about the neighborhood or...

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10 minutes

I knew a woman for a number of years. We were uncomfortable together most of the time. Conversation stalled and stilted. Little commonality, as hard as she tried to force it into being. Our common ground was drinking and sex....

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Vortex

I made fun of myself during the day for yesterday’s morning expression of concern for the trek homeward with the predicted vortex blast and my distinct lack of head or face covering. It is less than a half mile (I think) from...

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Guilelessness

A woman at the Yamaha grand yesterday made me smile, not for her talent but for her guilelessness. The out of tune piano did not help matters, either, but she really sounded like a clown, hacking at the piano with all her heart...

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Receipts

I started saving my receipts again, after a hiatus of I don’t know how many years. I’m...

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Shady Looking School Bus

Spotted this while tooling around on Streetview, comparing it to CycloMedia. I don’t have kids but if I did I wouldn’t want them riding this strange looking beast.  

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Looking into the past

On rain days like today, when it’s just barely raining, I remove my glasses and stuff them into a pocket, or someplace where they won’t collect the litter-like detritus of the gleeky rain. I am always surprised at...

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H Drive Fail, Almost

Checking file system on H: Volume label is TOSHIBA EXT. Stage 1: Examining basic file system structure … The segment number 0x17b74 in file 0x17b68 is incorrect. Fixing incorrect information in file record segment 17B68....

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Glass at 180

I went over to the public space at 180 Maiden Lane. As I sat at the piano trying to remember if I actually know how to play anything (my repertoire seems always to evaporate, must always be replenished) I summoned the Wichita...

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Volume. Quantity.

I discovered my trough of hundreds upon hundreds of documents at GDocs. Strange to be so voluminous with so little to really show. I don’t remember much of it, some is a foggy memory. I am reminded, once again, of a couple of...

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Ponti

I only learned recently that Michael Ponti died in October, at 84. He was a high school hero of mine, raising unknown composers like Alkan, Henselt, Liaponov and countless others up from the ashes of history’s neglect,...

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Trying something new

For years too many I relied on posting to this website from the .MOBI principle. Everything was posted from someplace other than the home PC. Well, almost everything. My old .MOBI was my favorite website I ever put together. It...

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Heature of Crabit

I’m a creature of habit. A heature of crabit. So when things seemed off this AM I started to question my habitude, my habitudinousness. I couldn’t understand where the light went. I shower with the lights out in the bathroom,...

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Dex is Next?

I finally got Dex to work last night. Dex is supposed to be a killer app that turns your phone into a desktop by simply plugging it into a PC or a giant TV. I got the PC function to work but had to order a USB C to  HDMI...

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Still waiting for the rain. January 22, 2023

Another rain day. Maybe not a bad thing. I will have to exit the property for beer and rations, but otherwise this could be another day in which I do not leave the apartment ever, not once. Save that little bit of wear and tear...

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Crag and Cray

I washed my hair but forgot to rinse. The soap suds expanded and grew, unknown to me until they started to cover my face and obscure my vision. A mirror revealed the ungainly truth. In search of a shower I quickly found one, but...

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Days Unmoored

Days are strange. I just had 3 days off from work. One day, as it rained continuously, saw me not leaving the apartment once. Did not even open the door to check mail. I do not remember the last time that happened but I think it...

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Cream of Stonsciousness

Woke up thinking “In the Weedy Willow” could be the dumbest song ever, to thinking I could stand to actually listen to it again, then segued into how similar the first notes of the melody are to Kabalevsky’s...

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History

Sunday’s last stramble to Flushing’s Kissena Boulevard is enough to make one think about history itself. Who writes it, who reads it, who repeats it? Traditionally history is said to be written by the winners. Is that true,...

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YAMAHA? AHAMAY!

There is a Yamaha grand at the public space on 180 Maiden Lane. I just played a Philip Glass piece, and messed around with some Bach, all for about 7 or 8 minutes. No one much was there and I mostly drowned in the din from...

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Morning Mental

Felt late today but for me being 45 minutes early is what I call being late. Trains just suddenly became slow, in the way slowness can be sudden. I had a swarm of thoughts today. Walking to the train, all the mental notes and...

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hunger woman

Hunger woman fucking an older man, complaining how many penises stick out of his forehead. At 55 you are 35 and when you are fucking him only 2 of the 47 penises you angrily imagine sticking out of his forehead get as hard as...

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One year today

One year ago today I started this adventurous job. I did not think I would make it 6 months. I did not want to make it 6 months, but that attitude changed. This is the first job job I had in 20 years since getting whacked from...

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Friday 13th

Don’t be superstitious. I will take away everything you own. I will pour your blood into coconut shells, for monkeys to drink.You will recite creeds and anthems you do not believe.You will be my hostage until your family’s spine...

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Morning Mush

I suppose I could send a nice note to the payphone maker, advising them of my swallowed quarter and suggesting the coin slot either be blocked or that coins deposited drop into the coin return chamber. This experience simply...

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Bk Stramble

Went out to Coney Island and through Bay Ridge today. I can knock Coney Island off my list of...

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Resin Risen

January 10 2023 802am 4 days until the glorious 1-year anniversary of my employ at this august establishment. Will there be parades? Speeches? Awards, rewards, raffles and ribald bacchanalian orgies? Doubtful. It could mean I...

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Almost a year

It is coming up on my one year date. One year since starting this job. For whatever reason it is considered a milestone at this place. TO me it’s just another drip in the bucket of time. I just talked to someone who has been...

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Skinny Bitches

January 7 2023 812amRemembered an incident from high school. It took place at the University of Tampa, on the edge of the Hillsborough River, which is quite wide at that point. I was with a friend from school, just the two of us...

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True Color

January 6, 2002 815amDreamed of a need to move on, move away, move out and up and in and out out out. There was too much stuff. I kept finding one long-forgotten closet or storage cabinet after another, one more suite of boxes...

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Complicated Bitterness

Do you ever have one of those moments when the person you thought was a pornographer acquaintance/friend from a masturbation website is in fact the one person from your past that you hoped never entered your life ever again? My...

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No Fios For Me

January 3 2022 818amNo internet at home, not much at least, for as much time and energy I chose to put into figuring it out. Still have phone, and with this monster screen magnifier it’s like a poor man’s laptop. But why would...

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Breathing

January 2, 2022Holidays passed me by this time around. I didn’t miss them. They didn’t miss me. Everyone is happy. Sleep has been a wild ride these days. Woke up at 11:30, happy for it to be early enough to do a couple of shots...

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NYE Day Rambles

December 31 2022 755amSlept savagely bad. Required extra panic pill to get heartbeat down to normal. I blame it on the violent and aggressive pizza, an ill-advised delivery order I’ve meant to avoid but somehow keep returning...

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She’s Real

Last night got a little crazy. Balancing my desire for a new dating app woman to be real with the reality that another woman I knew years ago and who is certainly real has re-entered my orbit. I offended her a few years ago but...

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Flushing Fields

Yesterday was a quick trip to Flushing Fields via M15 from Roosevelt Avenue. I thought Flushing Fields would be a new destination for me but in fact I had been there before, during one of my double-digit-mileage wanderments that...

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Wildcat

I never understood why she was in my life. I thought of her today. The Japanese Waif, I pleasantly nicknamed her without ever addressing her by that moniker. At 5’1” she might not have weighed 80 pounds but she wore it well. She...

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Guns on the SBS

Engrossing dream from which I thought I might not wake, or survive. Felt too real. Three or four of us on an SBS bus somewhere in the Bronx when suddenly the bus fills with heavily armed individuals, automatic weapons of war and...

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Rain

Changing jackets is always a big deal for me. It impacts every fiber of my day, bringing back memories of youthful jackets and coats, the pockets in which souls get lost, the hoods and zippers that make me insane and...

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Bomb Cyclone

December 23 2022 805amI unearthed a jacket I was certain I’d donated to a Salvation Army or Goodwill. It’s still in good shape, some minor bloodstains notwithstanding. It’s a nuclear winter jacket, good for 50-below and survival...

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What was Wednesday?

I sat at a bar for over an hour yesterday. Nothing notable occurred except for me getting some high scores on some of  the video games. That is m legacy. My lore. Word of my accomplishments on the JVC video game console will...

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Another Discarded Piano on Astoria Boulevard

I wouldn’t know who but the reason is obvious why someone is illegally dumping their pianos. Disposing of pianos legitimately through private carters is expensive. By leaving them here City Sanitation is obliged to haul...

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Another Piano on Astoria Boulevard

This is neat. I’m using a screen magnifier that turns my cell phone into an 18” display. This phone is, in fact, souped up with specs that are better than my desktop. So this is almost like having a regular laptop.  A poor man’s...

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Tiny Theaters

I don’t think about her as much as it might seem from these morning rattlings, but the timing does align with her brief, puzzling presence in my present day. She is there, or not there, or there by not being there. Today I...

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Talk the Walk

Legs might be sore from the walk yesterday. That’s funny. Never used to happen but then I never used to carry such a criminally heavy bag. I gave up on a Jack Spade bag after 7 or 8 years of honorable service. Now...

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I walked

From Myrtle Avenue and Willoughby I walked Myrtle all the way to the MetroTech, that dated...

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sounds

Thought I was listening to the sounds of the people upstairs fucking, their bedframe and floor...

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Tomomrrow I Walk

Tomorrow will be a walk day, I think. I have not done one of those lately. I do long subway and bus journeys, and a good amount of walking usually accompanies that. But I haven’t done a bridge walk in months, since cancelling...

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Shot Scannon

I missed it, save for the mention of it on 880, but yesterday was the end of the line for Scott Shannon, a seemingly permanent fixture on New York City airwaves for just a little longer than I’ve been in New York. There’s a...

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Staten Island Bay Ridge Stramble Video to Come

December 15 2022 813amWent out to Staten Island and then up through Bay Ridge yesterday. Bay Ridge, all I can ever think is “Ray Bidge,” a fictional used car salesman whose name simply defined him as a used car salesman from the...

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Thoughtsprawl

I slept like a stadium with the lights turned out. Life is a gig. I have never felt natural about putting on socks. It is not any discomfort of the physical act of reaching for my ankles or any kind of laziness. It is just that...

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Too many exes

December 12 2022 814am Too many exes. I don’t have problems with most of them but once in a while it’s like they all convene in the confluence of time and space. I mean we all live within a few blocks of each other so it’s no...

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Date of Hire Approacheth, Or Already Here…

December 10 2022 814amSaturday at the yob. Nearing one year since “Date of Hire,” a milestone the significance of which eludes me. I don’t remember the exact date of hire but start date when work actually commenced was January...

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Chagrin

In a huff of disillusionment I spent part of the lunch hour wandering the sprawling maze of the Fulton Street station. Sat in a corridor on John Street where there is a bust of George Washington at the end. Bought a 7/11...

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Pills for the Poppin’

December 9 2022 8:12am Just like that I feel like a normal human again. A night without booze, a night of Ativan and BP meds, a morning of the same. Without the booze I need none of this pill-popping regimen. I think the dynamic...

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